It has been quite a
long time since I have written on my blog. I am thinking that is a “Good”
thing. Maybe it just means things are just going along quite nicely. WRONG!
Lol.
Actually things have been quite well, we have managed for
the most part to stay on course well lately we have. We like most everyone else
I speak with have our ups & downs, on & offs. We deal with those “real
life” situations like everyone else.
Lee is traveling for work and has been away 20 days, only
one more to go! This trip seems to have went by quicker than the previous ones.
I think mostly because I have been a bit busier, and on the weekends I have had
something to do for two out of the three. I have my DD friends who have been
great about checking in with me, sending me funny messages, texts and phone
calls, you guys have no idea how much easier you make it when he is away so
long. You are the most amazing Support Group! Thank you!
This time in his travels away, I felt Lee was a bit more
engaged while he was away. Before he left, he had I guess I would call it a
list of things he wanted me to do or work on while he was away. These were not
all tasks some were FUN things he wanted me to do while he was away. We
discussed them, well he discussed, I listened. He knows me, I get Bored very
easily, and then when I get bored it is not always a Good thing. I can let my
mind wander and go to places it really has no place going.
One of the things Lee did different on this trip was he left
me seven sealed envelopes. He instructed me to not open any of them until the
week before he arrived home. I have to say I have Surprised myself as I have
only opened one of them before I should have!
I had no idea what was inside the envelopes, I just know it
is a request/order of something he wants me to do. I really kinda find it
exciting! I also feel how damn thoughtful. I know it is something so simple,
but it just meant to me… he is really trying to let me feel his presence while
8000 miles away.
I opened Envelope #1- (they are in no particular order he
said, but they are numbered???) I did open this one actually the night before I
should have. Talk about disappointment, the request/order was to make sure
there were clean sheets on the bed when he arrived home. REALLY??? I mean I
have always done that, always! OK well maybe that is kinda Payback for opening
the envelope earlier than I should have. KARMA
Envelope #2-WOW this one is a bit different! There were
explicit instructions, on me planning a meal for his arrival, what I am to be
wearing, how my hair is to be styled, and the candles are to be lit. (I wonder
does planning mean cooking? I am sure it doesn’t otherwise he would have said
cook a meal) lol!
Envelope #3-This request/order was again kinda like envelope
#1 something I would do anyway, it is a bit of pampering myself, that is always
nice, nothing like a good mani/pedi and well one other thing that I chose to do
on my own at the start of this but it seems like it is something he likes very
much now. It isn’t the same relaxing feeling as a mani/pedi but the results are
sooo worth it IMO, must be his opinion also. He then goes on to tell me a few
things that will happen the night he arrives home! (He will be exhausted, I
know this man)
Envelope #4-UGH! I am not sure I will be able to complete
this one before he arrives home. Send him an email about what my wildest dreams
or an experience I think about. He wants Details! That can be kinda sexy and at
the same time a lil unnerving for me anyway, heck maybe for him also. If he
only knew, Lol
Envelope #5-Surprised! I am really surprised about this one,
it is a bit much to talk about, it has to do with well “FUN” stuff but
something I have not done before without him. He even gives a specific time to
do this.
Envelope #6-Shocked! No way can I do this at work! I don’t
even have enough experience with this to feel comfortable with it. I think we
have used this once maybe twice and that didn’t really work out very well. I
must talk to him about this, I just can’t. It sounds like it could be FUN but
more Fun at home and with him, I will need to talk about this with him. He
agreed that I can wait until he is home and he is more than Happy to assist me!
Envelope #7-L Wear my hair up at work all day!!! UGH, I know he loves my
hair up, I do not like my hair up, but being kinda sorta somewhat an almost
Perfect tih I certainly will honor his request/order.
Basically the way this envelope thing as simple as it is.
The result made me really feel him near me, making his requests/orders. I
believe it made me know how much thought he put into this. I know these are
simple or things that most people would find silly or not necessary, but for me
it meant he took the time to think this out, made the effort, and try really
hard to keep us connected when so far apart from one another.
I realized that even with the simplest basic requests/orders
he by doing this made me feel “special”. Now don’t get me wrong he has always
made me feel pretty special, loved, & cherished. Maybe the word would be
engaged, it can be very difficult for me to feel his presence when we are away
from one another for so long.
Now it has me
thinking… What can I do for him to let him know how special he is to me, how I
love, appreciate & cherish him. I believe it is just as important to let
your HOH know what they mean to you. They shouldn’t just be “doing” for you,
that seems quite selfish and rather unfulfilling for the HOH IMO. It Makes me
want to step up a bit more, and let him have these same wonderful feelings I
do. It really meant more to me than I realized. Thank You Lee!
