It has been awhile since I have blogged. Sometimes I just don’t know what to say because I have so many feelings, emotions, and things on my mind, I just don’t know where to start. Like today for instance…
Many of you know one of mine & Lee’s goals is for me to quit smoking, omgosh it is so difficult. I am allowed x number of cigarettes a day. It is decreased by one a week. If I go over the specified amount then I am “in trouble”. BIG TROUBLE.
Well, I went over, so I am due AGAIN, I just got “in trouble” on Friday actually that was what Lee called my final installment payment for the times I went over when he was out of town. There is no way I could have been sp***** that many times and walked the next day, if we didn’t do it in installments. We have to work around our princess’s schedule and she has been home quite a bit lately, lucky me! J
That sp****** was the worst ever!!! No warm up that time, none at all. He said I keep breaking our agreement (by accident of course) and needs to give me something to remind me that going over my limit has a consequence one that I should not forget.
Tonight she will be leaving and he said we will take care of your “count” as he calls it later tonight. I begged, I pleaded, I asked can we just not, I don’t think I can handle this again so soon. He looked at me with that cute grin he always has and said, “Let’s make a deal, I won’t sp*** you, if you will go the next two days, lowering your count by 1 each day, but if you go over you are getting sp*****! Plus 10 more for not sticking to the deal.”
No way! I can barely keep within my limit now and to decrease it more… well that’s just absurd. Why would I take a chance to get 10 extra??? Nope not me! So I will take my sp******, like a big girl, well probably not really. I will ever so slowly walk up the stairs, I will beg, I will jump up & down, I will ask can I just leave my panties on, and then I will eventually get into position. OUCH!!!!!!Lee reminds me consistency is extremely important and he is bound and determined to be a consistent HOH! Yes dear, I know consistency is important but can you just not be so consistent this time????