Saturday, February 1, 2014

HOH Day!!!!!!!!!!!!

EsMay had a brilliant idea HOH Day! I couldn’t pass this up.
My Lee is just the Best HOH for me. From the beginning, the way he took me serious when introducing this to him. He knew it was very difficult for me to even mention to him. I wasn’t ever one to show a vulnerable side, I was always strong or at least pretended to be. He has always been one to never do things half way, whether that is his work ethic, his dedication to his friends and family, he always gives all of him. He took his time slowly and methodically he read what I sent but more importantly he researched on his own. That was monumental for me. He has embraced this lifestyle much easier and quicker than I thought. I actually wondered if he would even be very good at it. It is not how he was programmed, well maybe it was and I just didn't know it. He is pretty amazing at it. I have now been able to show him my vulnerable side and we are working on me slowly taking those walls down that have been up so high most of my life. He didn't let me push him, rush this, he decided how we would proceed. Not a long list of rules just a few basic ones. I am so thankful that he has embraced this exactly how he has.
Another thing I am so thankful for is the feelings it has stirred up inside of me. When Lee is firm with me and sets boundaries, I sometimes pout, throw a lil fit, or just learn to accept it. The boundaries or rules are for my own good most of them have been discussed before they have become a hard rule. I love that he loves me enough to look out for my health and well being. He has always shown his love & affection for me and would suggest maybe you shouldn’t do … but this is different now, it’s more like I love you so much I am NOT going to allow you to…. I have to admit I love the feeling it gives me to feel his strength, power, and determination   when I try so hard in my own sweet lil way to change his mind. I think this is my man, my rock, my safe place. I am so very lucky to have this man who loves and accepts me for the feisty, spirited, and reactive woman I am. He wants me to be me, but knows when it is time to pull me back in. I love that he helps me to keep a lil calmer, to not be so reactive and to tame that temper I can sometimes have (It has improved so very much). He gives me a secure feeling that is just so much more than I can describe. I have never felt insecure in our marriage but I have felt lonely, disconnected, and indifferent. I have never doubted his love just now it is so obvious and felt no matter if we are apart or together. This change in our relationship with DD has made our relationship better than I even imagined. I now feel cherished, connected to the core, I know I and our marriage is his number one priority.
I am so thankful for so many things I cannot post them all, this post is probably already way too long. Another thing DD and my HOH has made me thankful for is the intimacy, passion, and yes the sex. When Lee says just sometimes the smallest thing to me, looks at me a certain way, or after I have been sp***** (yes, I know hard to believe what could I possibly do to get a sp******?) Something comes over me, I don’t know exactly what but I just want him all of him in ways I never did before. This lifestyle change for us has made us both feel like we are much younger than we are and certainly not been married as long as we have. We just sometimes cannot get enough of one another. I do get all tingly, hadn’t been tingly in a long time. I do have passion and desire that I thought had just disappeared for the most part. Well thankfully Lee and his role as HOH woke all of that up 10 fold, and I couldn’t be happier about that! I think he is pretty dang happy about it too! 
So for my HOH Lee… Happy HOH Day! I love you and I thank you from the bottom of my heart and so deep in my soul. 


10 comments:

  1. I tried to promote the first ever HoH Appreciation Day in Oct 2012... as an HoH I do hope this catches on lol
    I think we should all come together in the The Community DD Chat room and come up with a yearly date :)
    And a TiH Appreciation Day also of course!
    Your friend,
    #MrBBSpanker

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  2. Ashley, so very sweet! And I love how he not just suggests now that you don't do something that isn't good for you, but now tells you that he loves you and you WON'T be doing that. Aw, my heart just melted for you over that. :) That shows a lot of love, and a lot of strength. I am so happy for you. :)

    Happy HoH Day. {{{hugs}}} EsMay

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  3. Kit- Aweeee thanks sweetie, MrBB- we have missed you!!! In 2012, I wasn't around because I would have been you know I would have been all over a TIH Appreciation Day (hehe) I think February 1st is a great date for HOH Day, and March 1, April 1, May 1, June 1, July 1, etc would be great Tih dates!! LOL, Es May- Thank you, I loved your idea for an appreciation day! Actually since finding your blog Lee has actually read more of it than myself that is saying a lot.
    honey

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  4. Honey, this is so touching. The things you talk about are why Sir Knight and I decided to begin our journey in DD. You are such an inspiration and your blog is so informative/entertaining/fun!! I like the HoH day idea and I'm definitely in favor of that TiH day Mr BB suggested. LOL
    Ladybrittany

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  5. Thanks LadyBrittany that is so sweet of u to say. I like the sound of tih days too lots of them LOL
    honey

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  6. Reading about your relationship is so inspirational. Thank you so much for all that you share!

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  7. Awwweeeee Thank you Tomsrose very sweet of you to say.
    honey

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  8. This post is sooooooo freakin' adorable! You guys are such a great couple and Colin and I have learned a lot from you guys. I'm so glad you two are in such a great place right now! :)

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